No One Pays Attention

How long have I been telling you I'm heading for surgery? Two months? Three? Why is everyone surprised then?

Everyone I've mentioned this to this week, even people I know I told personally, not just through this blog, seem to have forgotten. Apparently, they don't read this, and they must be tired of hearing me talk about myself. (Lord, I am!)

A single-breasted Amazon woman -- not going to be her anymore!

As a refresher: next week, I'll have that second mastectomy, along with a "salpingo oophrectomy", tubes and ovaries, both coming out. (You gotta love Greek -- Oo is the Greek word for "egg" and an oophor is an egg bearer. Salpingo means tubes or trumpets, but I'm sure they meant tubes this time. The "ectomy" part literally means to cut out.)  If you also remember, I will have my uterus looked at, because it's showing signs of a toxic reaction to my Tamoxifen regimen. I would not be surprised if I wake up without it as well, but that's not what the doctor is saying.

Yep, more fun over the holidays with stitches and drains and wound care. I'm ten days out from the anniversary of my first chemo, and I'm heading to the hospital again.  At least the food is really, really good there.

To add to it, my company separated officially from it's former parent, so our insurance changed just about a week ago. I've had to scramble to make sure that I'm covered, that the deductibles and out-of-pocket costs (over $5k) will still apply -- they nearly didn't.

I had to hit the ground running on this, because my dear hubby needed surgery, too, this time for his shoulder. He'd had a rotator cuff repair three years ago, and the recovery was long and difficult for him. Fortunately, this time it went more smoothly. He's going to recover quickly.

Fortunately, because our HR was on it, things went well with the insurance,. Thanks, HR Leader Lori. You saved much in the way of drama for me. I am most grateful.  Fighting hospital bills while recovering should be considered unconstitutional...cruel and unusual punishment!

I took a lot of encouragement from hubby's surgery going smoothly; maybe mine will as well. Maybe I'll recover very quickly, too and I'll find that certain issues, like that cyst that caused and infection, are gone.

One thing right out of the gate: I'll be balanced again! Right now I look like an Amazon warrior, who cut off her left breast to use a bow and arrow more effectively. (You may have heard me joke about being Wonder Woman, an Amazon, because my car is invisible to other drivers -- well, I even look the part now!)

I've had another challenge as well: my blood pressure is just spiking. High. I have no idea why; I've been losing weight, I walk a great deal, I have a decent diet, just a bit high in sugar, but not bad...so what's going on? And remember those heart palps? There's a correlation as well. And I have to grapple this now: they won't perform that surgery if I don't get it down. It doesn't rain...

So, you ask, am I upset about losing body parts again?  Yes and no. I will miss things a bit, but my looks are shot anyway. My once lovely shape (I had a great figure before all of this) is pretty misshapen now, so I'm concentrating on just keeping healthy. I *welcome* the possibility of losing that still troublesome cyst on my ovary.  So, I might be a bit sad that this has to be, but, really, it was ready to go anyway.

Docs, I'm ready. Make the drugs good.

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